My almost never break down

Its been a rough week for me...very rough..

I had work to do, and its not just simple drawings....its alot of things too....

By the work im suffering, i become tired...

and when im tired, i forgot, and became careless....

over the month... I've been shouted at, demoralized, take for granted, any mental attack a human can give to other human u ca imagine was thrown ..

I have to admit, im close to breakdown sometimes... And sometimes after work, i just sit in my car, listening to the silence of the world, or my ipod just to calm myself down....

but i never been even breakdown more than once...

I never let myself go down that path, but instead i get angry and tends to talk that way....

And here i thought i was right on about the full commitment and ready i was in a job.....and well, guess i was wrong, and abg zai was right....

Its not about just the job im abit depressed about....

Family matters, some friend issues, time management for myself sometimes....

LOL...

Im not going to let this get to me actually, i might be depressed but subconsciously i develop this barrier to get me off this things....

I become more involve in things, like work, games, movie than ever before, i want to do things perfectly sometimes, or even orderly, I avoid people who gets me into trouble or drama and just play my game....LOL...I tweet jua if im stress, i tweet with sarcasm alot nowdays.....

but at last, i know im not alone, i have few friends with me whom i know will hear me out about my problems....I have my abg zai jua...and last but not least, i have my sweetheart with me....

If i wish everything is easy as ABC, i wont realized how much people would care about me...

To abg zai, please get healthy alright? or u're lil bro over here still needs someone to talk with at times, I'll still prove to u i can stand stronger than ever, or even better than a gay man LOL....but you need to get healthy first.... I miss talking you~~